Comradery

I have had a change of heart.  A rarity for a headstrong aries.  A revelation, of which my mom will be beyond pleased.  

I do not like running alone.  

Especially at night.  

It is not peaceful, in fact, it is quite the contrary.  

I used to love this activity as a solitary one.  It seemed unusual to be with another, running side-by-side.  Why???  Well, silence can be uncomfortable.  It's not that I have ever been a recluse, but perhaps this idea used to deter me.  Seriously.  On some of my runs, communication is not a possibility.  I may not have the breath to verbally transmit information.  As I've gotten older this is no longer uncomfortable for me.  I believe time spent together in silence actually strengthens relationships.  These moments are binding.   

I yearn for companionship.

Prior to my run last night, I was catching up with my mom.  She attempted to deter me from the work out -- ordering me to stay in, be cozy, and watch a NetFlix.  Naturally, I resisted -- I did grab my "jogger-fogger".  About a mile in I found myself alone, cold, dark.  Feelings I hate.  The insecurity and emptiness were overwhelming.  Maybe it is just that my moms worries were weighing heavy on me last night.  Either way, for the time being, next time I feel the need for mental relief late I night I will practice yoga.  I like the way it makes me feel better anyways...